Comfortably numb

What happens when you – meaning me – breaks all rules and imperatives of bonds? What the devil am I talking about!?

The bonds are those rules that say what we ought to do and be – to appear normal – and be part of the ‘herd’. Departing from the rules and the herd means being an outcast; no doubt.

What reigns us back in, is the sense of perceived disapproval of the many i.e. the herd.

But when you say ‘Sorry nobody can define rules for my existence‘ – something different happens. You – meaning me – are ultimately free. Free to die alone. No sadness. No fear. No sense of loss. No shame. I came with nothing. When I depart with nothing, I will have lost nothing. All I can do is thank nature for the time and experience.

Some will now be ‘concerned’ that I am suicidal. I am not. I am simply ‘existential’ – willing to face the existential vacuum and what may lie beyond or NOT! Nothingness – how do you face that  – when your biologically and psychologically programmed nature screams at you, from the pits of your ‘soul’?

There is a decision. To be ruled or not. When are ‘you’ the true master of your destiny? When you are unbound. That is true freedom. Finally – to give up that which is orchestrated by biological bonds, that which is emotional; that which is prescribed by social imperatives. No shackles. Scary for some. The existential vacuum is no cosy place. It is dark, cold, quiet, alone, soundless – it’s you and nothingness – no hope of  a heaven or hell – no existence ‘beyond’. But in there is contentment – of time served. And time – the ultimate ruler – is denounced – a figment of an imagination created by the universe as we are constrained to know it. Severed – no chains – pure freedom – an ecstasy, in being called back into the universe.

Hello? (Hello? Hello? Hello?)
Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home?
Come on now
I hear you’re feeling down
Well I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again
Relax
I’ll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?
There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re saying
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I’ve got that feeling once again
I can’t explain you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb
I have become comfortably numb
Okay (okay, okay, okay)
Just a little pinprick
There’ll be no more, ah
But you may feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do believe it’s working, good
That’ll keep you going through the show
Come on it’s time to go
There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
I have become comfortably numb.

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